Soon

In 10 days, my latest publication of You’re Not Dead gets released through Olympia publishers! I am beyond excited. I have paired it down so it’s just the tale of hospital life, I was given over 300 new edits that needed to be made, and I signed a contract that my next book has to be pitched with them!

Okay, the last point was more of a humble brag, but I am very excited!

The book has a new cover, as well! I will not spoil it until I get my copy, mostly because that does not seem fair to me, but I can assure you that it looks pretty! Probably because I didn’t make it this time in 20 min while I waited for water to boil for my fifth cup of coffee.

Anyway, as soon as I get more information, I will be sure to pass it along. Keep your eyes peeled to this site, as I will be posting the new cover once I get the final proofs and whatnot!

Just a reminder that I scrapped my Patreon, and am now using Buy Me a Coffee. It seems like exploitative to ask for donations when I actually produce something as opposed to demanding a kind of subscription. I am prone to go silent for weeks at a time; and, for that, I am incredibly sorry!

Help me eat

A couple of days ago, I canceled (I hope I did it right) my Patreon.

I ran it for a while, but I have noticed myself falling short on immediate production of content, and I felt like it was unfair to be supported by the few people still on that list.

I have started a “Buy Me a Coffee” account, instead. It is more tip based. You can donate a dollar once, and never have to worry about being charge again!

I am still getting used to the new format. I ask for your patience as I figure out all of the in’s-&-out’s over the next bit. I think the layout I have right now is interesting, and it is very barebones right now. I plan on doing proper updates once I have everything sorted.

In the meantime, give it a gander! Tell me if you feel I should consider something that I haven’t set up yet, and tell me what you would like to see!

If you ARE one of the few who still support me on Patreon: I read that you may be charged for August, but if it happens after that, please let me know!

Canadian Civics

*long, exaggerated sigh*

I was going to make this a podcast, or whatever, but I am just so frustrated. I keep seeing people push blame onto our Prime Minister here in Canada for stuff that has little to nothing to do with the Federal branch of our government. It makes me wonder if people actually remember the half-course that we all had to take in highschool, or if they just wished we lived in a dictatorship so they could take the easy road of blaming one person.

Federal Government
– Maintains spending on a country level
– Deals with military actions
– Handles foreign relationships

Provincial Government
– Healthcare, schools, provincial roads
– Housing, taxes on fuel, licences
– Has the most impact on your daily life

Municipal Government
– Local Streets and Parks
– Overall look and feel of immediate area
– Garbage and recycling

There are some crossovers, but nowhere near as many as people seem to think there are. Yes, the Federal Government can suggest laws down the line, but really that is all they are going to do. Let’s take into consideration the lockdowns that have been happening. The Federal branch recommended to the Provincial what should or should not take place. Enforcements were to be taken primarily on a provincial scale, with smaller infractions to be handled by Municipal governments.

Yes, these are just broad-strokes. There are a million tiny things, points, and ideas that I have left out because I could be here writing this for hours. No, I am NOT a professional. I am not even involved in politics at this time, aside from what I read in passing. I did NOT want to have to write this, but everyone is getting on my nerves by accusing arms of government for not doing what they think they should, or giving a pass to arms of power that do not deserve them.

I might be a ball of stress

Hi! You have probably noticed that I have R E A L L Y sucked at keeping everything up-to-date. I could sit there and load on excuse after excuse, but really, it is because I have been horribly distracted by life.

Also, and this is only a MINOR thing, what I want to talk about right now is incredibly cerebral and I am NOT the person to attempt such a thing. Does not help that my take would be reaction to a reaction and not from a first-hand source.

Anyway, You’re Not Dead is about to get a third release. I have a new book of short stories that I am working on, and have completed about 129 pages. A few tweeks left to go, then I am going to ship it off to the ol’ publisher to uphold my contract!

Incase you missed it, I did post a new vlog the other day. I talked about how we all need to brag more about stuff we do, especially in the arts world. Not exclusively, obviously. No one should be shamed for anything that they think is fantastic! It got me over the hump of 30 subscribers on YouTube, which is always awesome!

On the behind-the-scenes I’m poor and hungry front – my Patreon is not doing very well as of late. If all goes according to plan, I hope to cancel it in the future. In the meantime: it’s the closest thing I have to a conventional income. Please consider becoming a supporter. There are a couple of nifty perks, and I am always fishing around for additional ideas to make things more enticing!

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I finally got my ass in gear and got one of these done.

I meant what I said in the video! If you have something to brag about, even if it’s just putting your pants on the right way today: tell me about it in a comment somewhere! I would love to hear about it!

About the song — it’s Forlorn by All Cut Up. It was written by Melo and Kev, making it one of the few ACU songs not 100% written by Kev. I do backup vocals, drums, and I programmed the piano at the end. It will probably always remain as my proudest bit of producing I have done.

Podcast link if you don’t YouTube

anewsin :: Demons

I lie listening to the gentle footsteps above my head. I reach my arm out as far as I can but my hands fall short of the ceiling. In defeat, I turn my body and continue to work on my letter — my letter.

Every intricate detail, displaying a different way of destroying the lives of those who step above me. It details the knives in my back and the daggers in my eyes. It describes the blood rushing over my torso like the rain on a tin roof. It speaks of the horrors that go on in my day to day, while everyone else screams of nothing.

The angel lying next to me doesn’t know what I have planned, but they will better from my explosive finally. They will finally get their wings.

Still, I wonder; is this all just an irrational expression of inner demons? Should I seek help or guidance? Or, should I just keep them to myself and have this fire inside destroy all that I am and create a shell of a human to distraught with their own perception of life to shed the simplest emotion.

The timer ticks and I wither away into insanity.

Gone are the days of innocence. Gone are the days of bliss. If ignorance is stupidity then may I wear the dunce cap and parade around recklessly.

Heed my call and run!

Run far to the east where you might escape this torment that plagues me! I see it consume a different individual everyday.

Many of them accept their call before they explode, throwing limbs in every direction. Those who accept don’t bother anyone else due to their own containment in depravity. Those who fight back cause commotion and get taken down quickly. Though noticed, they fade. Oh they fade into such obscurity that we create stories detailing a life that never happened! We create monsters out of them when all they wanted was to hold someone’s hand.

Even art is no longer expression but has become the wretch itself. It is spawned from minds that know no creativity or sound. They come from a place fueled by desperation to conform to a world that was created to conform to a world.

We base everything on the notion that we have something physical to hold when there is nothing. Built on a dream we crumble to despair, but despair not! For we can overcome this regime! Take up the sword and shoot your way through the barricades and children. They created their fate when the world was geared to them by others. They shall be the first to be extinguished.

Classic Album Review :: The Weakerthans — Reconstruction Site

Do you ever look up from your day-to-day and realize you have not done something important? In my particular case, it is YELL at you about possibly the MOST important album EVER RELEASED!

ahem… got a bit excited there…

I am actually nervous to talk about this album simply because it’s hard for me to talk about it and NOT quote it incessantly. I realize that I have stated albums are my favourite in the past, so I will attempt to state the importance of this album in a way that dictates just how it has impacted me without using hyperbole. Any comparison I make, therefore, is warranted.

I still remember hearing “Our Retired Explorer” forever ago and thinking that it strikes that very delicate balance of being silly, yet poignant. I am going to start the review at that time, even though it’s a song in the literal middle of the album.

I was just in high school, so early 2000’s, and saw the music video on one of the many alternative music video shows that dotted the airwaves at that time. The song starts with a strike, the jumps into lyrics that tell a tale of a weary explorer. That’s right: the title of the song gives a hint of what the song is about. The entire song, on face value, is talking about a man who has dreams of going back to antarctica and spending time with penguins. Really, the song is a metaphor talking about longing after a time in the past using memories of exploration of lands undisturbed as a metaphor.

How do I know that it’s something deeper than the aesthetic? I don’t. All I can do is inject my personal ideas onto it to find some sort of deeper meaning.

The whole album is like that: a descent into the mind of someone running out the clock. The reason I have this sort of perception of the content is that the album has two tracks that break the album into sections. These tracks clearly share a narrative, and it is bleak and beautiful.

I can say, with great certainty, this album contains some of the greatest lyrics ever written. Songs like “One Great City” are silly and irreverent, meanwhile tracks like “Plea From a Can Named Virtue” are depressing and honest.

Musically, the album is a combination of punk and country. It might be a more common combination, but I have honestly not come across it prior, or since. I am NOT a country fan, but this album uses the ideas perfectly. There is little complicated about the composition, and minus a couple of excellent solo’s, few albums this plain hold my attention this well.

Yeah, I pissed off people because I had to write this. I am not sorry, and I will probably write about them in the future. This is such an important album lyrically, and the next album they released was the “next chapter”, if you will — getting even darker and more cynical.

Also, you need to be proud of me. I went this entire retrospective without quoting the lyrics for (Manifest) and (Hospital Vespers).

Working Working Working…

Hi!

Hello!

I have been horrible at keeping everyone updated and current with what’s going on. I am now about to waste your time going over where I have been for the last few months!

First off: You’re Not Dead.
I have been waiting almost a year to do a re-issue of this book. I have been working with Olympia over in Britain to get it all fixed up for the launch. Finally, I have news! It looks like the book will be getting it’s day in the sun in the next couple of months. I will do a proper update when I get a day, but it has been streamlined back to its original state.

That’s right! It’s not 100 pages, but it is back to just being the tale of me in hospital! No longer is it padded with short stories and obvious fiction!

That brings me to point two!
New book at the 75% mark. I have to thank the few people who have been assisting me in my journey, and I hope to have it at a more consolidated state soon. It has turned out to be a collection of short stories. I have done most of the writing and self-editing phase, I just really need to flush out one of the threads. I have a tonne of ideas, a very clear purpose that I want to work towards, now I just need to get the courage to actually do it.

Thing three is an apology.
I have dropped the ball on my YouTube channel as well as here. I have scripts for future updates, I just cannot find the time to piece them together right now. The biggest, and most important one, is that I have an idea to jay-splain genre’s. An idea I had recently is to do a bunch of short updates reminding everyone how Civics in Canada work. I have seen too many people blame the wrong branch of government for issues they have no say over, meanwhile giving a pass to those who deserve to the held accountable. I am torn and far from an expert on either of these facts, but does anyone have interest in either of these ideas?

I know that it doesn’t sound a lot. I am, of course, keeping things out which still don’t give me a full excuse to do updates as infrequent as I do. All I can promise is that cool things are coming down the pipeline in the next couple of months!

Unintended Victory

I’m not going to be putting sources because this is mostly opinion/observation, also massive news regarding Roe V Wade in the states.

Has anyone else noticed how the Republican Party in the USA just guaranteed all future wins for the Democratic party over the last half decade?

Between The Former President orchestrating a failed coup that is now getting massive attention world-wide, and the SCOUS removing the main government from decisions regarding abortion, they have cemented a larger voice for those who don’t agree. As bad as all of their decisions have been over the last little bit, and how catastrophic they have been for democracy, it is becoming more and more apparent just how self-sabotaging those political moves have been.

To those who don’t get how it works (incredibly simplified), Roe V Wade meant that individual states have no say on abortion. This meant that it was up to the federal level to regulate how things like that worked. This was great on the macro level, but what was not thought about by the “Justices” is how unliked their ruling was in the collective mind. Now, someone running for governor just has to promise to keep/remake abortion legal in their state. There is enough support for that to make the elections extremely one-sided.

To be extremely clear: I am not a fan of democracy done that way. However, the right keeps making it easier for the “left” from the standpoint that their rulings are so incredibly unliked.

To be clear, I am NOT supporting this ruling. I wish I could do more to help those who need support, and I have made it my mission to amplify voices and movements to better the world. The Supreme Court has demonstrated just how relevant they are in today’s world, and keep making proclamations that cement that idea.

To get ahead of the question of why a Canadian cares: because I am human. Because what happens politically seems to try to cross the border. Because I want things to be better for others. Because I have some sort of compassion, in opposition to the consensus.