~2015

I am using this thing as just a personal blog site until I get back to updating about health stuff!

Well, we made it. Another year gone. For some, 2015 was glorious and beautiful. For others, last year was a pit of misery and hell. To them, I only offer my hope that 2016 will be better and hugs.

I really wanted to write talking about what happened in the last year in a kind of reflection. I realize that I ramble on and on about what I am up to on a semi-weekly basis, but only when looking back can I truly be objective about the things I experienced.

1. WENT TO SCHOOL!
   Yes, I switched programs because I hated the one I was in/could not do everything that was asked for me. I’m still here. I’m still doing it. I will succeed. I want to and I have to. It’s costing me too much to NOT make it happen!
   I am far too old for this shit somedays. Somedays I am too scattered. Trust me I say that I will make it happen.
2. WALKED!
   Okay, that one kind of trumps my last couple of years.
   NOT ALONE mind you, but it was still something I was never supposed to do.
3. STARTED SOMETHING AMAZING.
   If you have me on Facebook or follow me on Twitter, you have seen me post links to my works at Mind The Music TO.
   For those of you who do not know what I am talking about, it is a website I webmaster for my good friend Katie Maz. She takes amazing photos of Punk concerts and various other kinds of local shows. I manage most of the HTML as well as write the occasional review. If that sound like your thing, come out and read!
4. MET FANTASTIC PEOPLE!
   Yep, I did.

Somedays, I worry that I put too much emphasis on my old way of life and I am ignoring things I need to do to make life worth living again. That is something I am going to adjust for this new year. Not that I will stop pushing myself, but I need to spend more time on self-improvement for the short term. So that is what I will do. I spent a year becoming who I am today, and a year trying to get back to what I was. I am done with it. I will just be what I can be. I have the people in my life to let me do that, and some people have already asked why I am not just keeping my head down. I live in this horrible place between being truly fucked up and “normal” and some days pride keeps me from just doing what I need to do. Wow. I typed that sentence and realized my main issue. I suffer from an over abundance of pride. Sorry.

ANYWAY. I got watching this great video speaking about why making New Years Resolutions can be futile, and I know that I will not adhere to anything more that what I usually say. So, I’ll just say that.

My New Years Resolution is to be the best that I can be.

Here’s to 2016.