Marriage?

On my FaceBook page, I asked what I should write about. “Best Frozen Foods” was a strong contender, until I remembered that pizza is a thing. That entire question is a bit redundant in a world where we have pizza. Sorry.

Someone mentioned the topic of my marriage plans, and the response was overwhelming. Therefore, here you are masses: plans as they stand.

WE DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING PLANNED.

We were initially planning on getting married this August. When we looked up and realized that we had NOTHING planned, we have now pushed it back to 2017. We will plan everything soon, life has just been kicking us in the ass lately.

I will not lie: the fact that we are so disorganized scares the hell out of me. Was this a wrong idea? I know she is my one-and-only, but does she feel the same about me? What if I cannot be what I need to be?

These are all questions that float though my head. As soon as I let them come to be in some sort of medium, I laugh to myself. I know the answer to every one of them and THAT is why we’re doing this.

Am I ever going to be perfect? Fuck no. She swears that I am to her, and that is honestly enough for me.

If you have known me for a very long time, you may remember a time not all that long ago that I was against the idea of marriage. I still am, in a way, but she’s not. I want to be with her forever/for a long time. I want her to be happy. I want to be more than just a boyfriend/partner in title alone, I want to be hers forever. I want her to feel comfortable. I want her to know that I will be by her side for all time, not just while we are in the same room. Can you have that feeling without marriage? I think so, but it doesn’t change the fact that I want this. She wants this. (Want want want).

That is all I can really say about my pending marriage. It will happen eventually, I am just not sure when right now. I promise, when we have it all planned, to tell the world. I will not keep it all to myself.

Recommended listening (mirrors how I feel about her).