I want to preface this piece off by mentioning that this is all self-observation. There are a tonne of people a lot smarter than me who have written about the topic of brain fog, so all I can offer to the world is my personal experience with it. Therefore, this should not be taken as a scientific dive into that world. I know I don’t need to say that I am some kind of professional, but I am stating it in the off-chance that someone takes my words as more than a morbid kind of entertainment.
I shouldn’t be writing this. I shouldn’t be doing much outside of watching something — maybe sometime with cats or puppies being stupid. My ability to rationalize is very hampered right now.
I feel drunk, without the physical side-effects. I feel sleepy, but I tried to nap and got nowhere with that. I feel distracted, but hyper focused on the wrong things.
I call it brain-fog because I read that term somewhere and, regardless if it’s a one-for-one description, it is very apt at describing what I am currently feeling. Ironically, I only seem to see it mentioned when I’m in this state and, thus, cannot comprehend what I’m reading.
ISN’T IS GREAT THAT I AM TRYING TO WRITE SOMETHING IN THIS STATE OF MIND?
No amount of caffeine can fix it. As mentioned, I tried to sleep and got no where with the endeavour. I just ate not long ago, and I had a drink of water to see if that would clear things up. Thankfully, when I have experienced this in the past, it only lasts a day or two. I think. I hope. What if this is a permanent state, and sometimes I just notice it more than others?
I hope you enjoyed my last update on my YouTube channel. I know I come off as very rambly, but everything I say is mildly scripted. At least, to a point where I have an idea of how long the final product will be. That’s why I released the last one as a “short”. Now that I have opened up that option for myself, I will probably record a couple more. I will not be releasing them right away as a PodCast, instead opting to smash them together after five or so. That way, if you do follow the audio-only format, you won’t be inundated with short episodes.
Oh, update on the new book: currently sitting at just shy of 22,000 words. It’s half going well. I wanted to be a lot further, but it’s only the first draft that I wanted to be complete by the end of the year. I hope that I can write another 3000 words without succumbing to unnecessary bloat. Then, I will spend far too long making it prettier and longer!