Author: jmgard

Worked retail for about ten years. Been in a wheelchair since November 2013. Doing my best to return to the life I once knew.

Waking Early

I have been going to bed earlier over the last few days, and starting my day similar. I’m not a fan.

I always hear about this magical life regarding starting the day early. I have not found the same majesty that other people have promised. I get roughly eight hours every night, but I find that the day drags.

Maybe it is because I am self employed, maybe it is because I am on other people’s schedule. I find that the hours between nine and one are a slog. I have even started exercising earlier to maybe kill the time. I have started writing earlier. I have started research and reading stuff that I usually struggle to fit into my day.

HOWEVER.

I am doing all the things I would normally stretch over the whole day in a matter of two hours. I understand that the point of starting the day earlier is to get everything done, but I am now just packing more into my day to HOPEFULLY kill the few hours I have gained. It is boring, lonely, and kind of irritating.

I think I need to make a change again. I seem to have a huge life-changing event every few years, and I have lived in the same place for the last two years.

I have been querying my next novel to a few agents. I hope that I have a response some time soon. On that note: if you know of or are a literary agent, please contact me somehow. I have been trying to do things myself, but I am sure that my methods are the wrong way. Using search engines to find a very niché kind of agent is probably the wrong way of doing things.

To get back on topic: I think that the extra time I have created for myself is making me impatient. I hit refresh on emails damn-near constantly, even though my phone would tell me if I had something that requires my attention.

quiet update

I am still missing, for now, but I added a new link at the top to my Buy Me a Coffee. That way, you can donate to help me stave off hunger, as well as maybe afford to keep this blog going for a bit!

I will be returning to more frequent updates in the next week or two. Latest, by the 18th of March, but I don’t plan on waiting that long.

Thank you for your ongoing attention. I love you.

Still hiding…

I am breaking my silence to ask if anyone has connections for book reviewers?

I have a PDF copy of my book, if anyone is interested. On the outset, I can promise promotion on this site, as well as a link on my book page.

If you are interested, or want more information or requests, please get hold of me in the comment section below. Or, leave me a DM on my FaceBook page.

More consistent updates coming on March 17th. The significance of that date will be restated at that time.

In the meantime, remember that I love you.

A year end reminder…

Happy Holidays! I hope your day has been/is fantastic!

Yes, I do say happy holidays. I am not Christian, and am also extending my blessing to everyone who has a reason to celebrate.

I am going to have a video prepared for the end of the month or early next year, but I wanted to remind everyone to have a safe New Years. I feel like an overbearing parent saying that, but I have lost a friend or two every year due to excessive or stupid partying.

I don’t want sympathy for that point: I just want you to be safe and as awesome as you want to be.

Also, did anyone actually do their resolution from last year? Mine was to survive the year, so I think I did okay. If you did not succeed, that’s okay! Most people don’t make it, and life is hard; especially right now.

Here’s to a fucking great 2023! Or, a somewhat more decent 2023! Remember: don’t touch anything and keep your voice quiet. I am taking a risk in jinxing it, and no one else should pile on!

ooops hiatus.

I just made the realization regarding how long it has been since my last actual blog post, and not just me advertising the vlog and whatnot.
(while I’m on the topic, please subscribe)

Allow me to take your time to remind you that my book is available on Amazon and a few other places.

If you have already picked up a copy, please remember to leave a review! Even just some-number-of-stars and no text is fantastic. It really does help the recommendation algorithm, if such a thing exists. Plus, if I sell just 3000 copies, I can afford to release my next book, which is already complete! Also, I started another one. So, that puts my current list of WIP’s to 3, which is both intimidating and awkward, yet interesting and exciting!

Anyway, I will be taking the rest of the year to catch up on stuff and HOPEFULLY get my shit together.

Have a great festive season, and may your New Years be exciting (in a good way).

Unnamed Podcast 40

I recorded this because I got thinking about how we put too much pressure on ourselves to be the best at things we claim to love. We seem to forget that we love something because we love it. If you love something, there should not be a goal, unless what you love is the goal. There is nothing wrong with getting better, but your attachment should not be based on skill.

Also, another link to buy my book! It makes a great addition to a Christmas gift!

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Why yes, I did stop numbering these!

There is a great playlist of all of them at the end of each video, so numbering feels unnecessary. Let me know if I am wrong, or if you disagree! I probably won’t listen, but I would appreciate the insight!

Also, I said “new album” instead of “new book”. It was a mistake at time of recording, but I kept it in the final product because the assumed upset was far too exciting for me to ignore. I assumed too high, but that’s okay.

I have started actually scripting a commercial for You’re Not Dead. I hope that it will be all prepared in the next couple of weeks, as it heavily circles the Christmas season.

If you have a quote you would like me to use in the commercial, get hold of me somehow and let me know!

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I have decided that I am going to number each one of these until I hit 50. Then, we’ll see.

The audio on this post is a bit strange because I had a finger overtop of the microphone. I have new ideas for future recordings where that is less likely to be an issue.

Regardless, I have a link in the video to another video that I truly recommend.

I hint at big news later, and I plan on holding myself to that. It also implies that I am not going to share the important information until I have all parts in order.

I suck at silence

Random update on things: I have submitted a new manuscript to my publisher. I won’t know their opinion until the end of November, so you get to know nothing new or exciting about it either.

October has always felt like a busy month for most of my life. When I was in school, it was that month when everything finally came together. When I was working full-time, it was reluctantly gearing up for Christmas. In bands, it was counting things done the year prior for whatever paperwork had to be done. Just before I died, it was a trip to Iceland.

Between the book being submitted, finally, and things finally calming down at the homefront after a tumultuous year, I have this burning itch that something is going to go wrong. I have this burning feeling in the pit of my stomach that I am going to offend someone, or say something stupid, or a plethora of things.

Please allow this to be a blanket apology: if I fuck something up, I probably did not mean whatever I said or did the way it came out. I am just losing my shit, and I am not sure why.

My initial plan was to record this all in a vlog on my channel. Then, I noticed that was last two updates were around 10 days apart. I am not opposed to that, but I do wish to refrain from setting some sort of president that implies that I will update on a regular schedule. I really do recommend subscribing mostly BECAUSE my schedule is so haphazard. I like to pretend it keeps things fresh and exciting! You will NEVER know when I have a new video to harass your everything with!

I’m probably just reading too far into everything again. I’m sorry.