I have been going to bed earlier over the last few days, and starting my day similar. I’m not a fan.
I always hear about this magical life regarding starting the day early. I have not found the same majesty that other people have promised. I get roughly eight hours every night, but I find that the day drags.
Maybe it is because I am self employed, maybe it is because I am on other people’s schedule. I find that the hours between nine and one are a slog. I have even started exercising earlier to maybe kill the time. I have started writing earlier. I have started research and reading stuff that I usually struggle to fit into my day.
I am doing all the things I would normally stretch over the whole day in a matter of two hours. I understand that the point of starting the day earlier is to get everything done, but I am now just packing more into my day to HOPEFULLY kill the few hours I have gained. It is boring, lonely, and kind of irritating.
I think I need to make a change again. I seem to have a huge life-changing event every few years, and I have lived in the same place for the last two years.
I have been querying my next novel to a few agents. I hope that I have a response some time soon. On that note: if you know of or are a literary agent, please contact me somehow. I have been trying to do things myself, but I am sure that my methods are the wrong way. Using search engines to find a very niché kind of agent is probably the wrong way of doing things.
To get back on topic: I think that the extra time I have created for myself is making me impatient. I hit refresh on emails damn-near constantly, even though my phone would tell me if I had something that requires my attention.
I just made the realization regarding how long it has been since my last actual blog post, and not just me advertising the vlog and whatnot. (while I’m on the topic, please subscribe)
Allow me to take your time to remind you that my book is available on Amazon and a few other places.
If you have already picked up a copy, please remember to leave a review! Even just some-number-of-stars and no text is fantastic. It really does help the recommendation algorithm, if such a thing exists. Plus, if I sell just 3000 copies, I can afford to release my next book, which is already complete! Also, I started another one. So, that puts my current list of WIP’s to 3, which is both intimidating and awkward, yet interesting and exciting!
Anyway, I will be taking the rest of the year to catch up on stuff and HOPEFULLY get my shit together.
Have a great festive season, and may your New Years be exciting (in a good way).
I recorded this because I got thinking about how we put too much pressure on ourselves to be the best at things we claim to love. We seem to forget that we love something because we love it. If you love something, there should not be a goal, unless what you love is the goal. There is nothing wrong with getting better, but your attachment should not be based on skill.
There is a great playlist of all of them at the end of each video, so numbering feels unnecessary. Let me know if I am wrong, or if you disagree! I probably won’t listen, but I would appreciate the insight!
Also, I said “new album” instead of “new book”. It was a mistake at time of recording, but I kept it in the final product because the assumed upset was far too exciting for me to ignore. I assumed too high, but that’s okay.
I have started actually scripting a commercial for You’re Not Dead. I hope that it will be all prepared in the next couple of weeks, as it heavily circles the Christmas season.
If you have a quote you would like me to use in the commercial, get hold of me somehow and let me know!
Random update on things: I have submitted a new manuscript to my publisher. I won’t know their opinion until the end of November, so you get to know nothing new or exciting about it either.
October has always felt like a busy month for most of my life. When I was in school, it was that month when everything finally came together. When I was working full-time, it was reluctantly gearing up for Christmas. In bands, it was counting things done the year prior for whatever paperwork had to be done. Just before I died, it was a trip to Iceland.
Between the book being submitted, finally, and things finally calming down at the homefront after a tumultuous year, I have this burning itch that something is going to go wrong. I have this burning feeling in the pit of my stomach that I am going to offend someone, or say something stupid, or a plethora of things.
Please allow this to be a blanket apology: if I fuck something up, I probably did not mean whatever I said or did the way it came out. I am just losing my shit, and I am not sure why.
My initial plan was to record this all in a vlog on my channel. Then, I noticed that was last two updates were around 10 days apart. I am not opposed to that, but I do wish to refrain from setting some sort of president that implies that I will update on a regular schedule. I really do recommend subscribing mostly BECAUSE my schedule is so haphazard. I like to pretend it keeps things fresh and exciting! You will NEVER know when I have a new video to harass your everything with!
I’m probably just reading too far into everything again. I’m sorry.
My ultimate purpose of this is to raise awareness of the topics instead of giving answers. The real answers to both are long, and very intricate. I recommend reading the wikipedia pages on both for a more in-depth, but still cursory, understanding of the topics. Especially for Labour Day; it’s truly fascinating!