Metric of age

I have an actual delema that I have faced for the last little while, but I have not voiced it (to my memory). This year, on the twelfth, I turn 32. The last time I flatlined was seven years ago on the twelfth. So, my issue is simple: am I 32? Or should I go by the more morbid timestamp of 7?

I mean, I say morbid, but that implies that I have reservations about that fact. I died. I’m okay. I would say that it’s common, that everyone goes through that. I am not sure that is the case, however. Neither of my parents or my brother have. In fact, I only know of a handful that have the ability to say that they have ever flatlined in their life.

Let’s go over the horribly happy list of me not dying! (keep in mind, this is just what I have been told.)
– I was born not breathing and didn’t for a full minute after being born.
– I apparently died on my way from Brantford to Toronto.
– I died on my birthday when I was in hospital.

Now: should I be more disturbed at this list than I am? No, I don’t think so. I would make a sash and have them as badges if I could. Scream at me for being fucked if you want, but I take a great deal of satisfaction that I have the tenacity to survive all of this. I just feel bad for every person reading this right now: you have to deal with me for a long time.

Now, do I want to push my luck? Do I have a great deal of disrespect for mortality now? Do I view myself as immortal?

No. If anything, I am a bit more paranoid of certain events now.

I wonder if I have literally pushed my body through what I have left. Maybe, next time I won’t wake back up. Or, I’ll reach my final form of a potato? I have no idea.

My external hard drive dropped off my desk today. It died, and all my music was on there. So, that’s approximately one terabyte of audio gone. I am not happy about it, obviously.

It’s not news that I usually hate not having physical forms, but what I don’t advertise is that I have a love for my library of digital audio. There is something nice about having all of the music I enjoy at my fingertips.

As far as I can tell, the files are still there. I just need to bring the device somewhere to have them extracted. So, I guess it’s not all horrible. It’s just inconvenient.

BITCH BITCH WHINE WHINE.

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That’s Better…

I am sorry for the vanishing last week. My wife bought me a new laptop for our anniversary, and it was very difficult for me using my main PC to update.

*insert joke about being blind here*

So, yeah! I have a new laptop. It is nothing fancy, but it does mark the first time I have owned a Windows computer in over fifteen years. No: it cannot handle the gaming that comes with having Windows over Mac, but there are other programs that I can utilize for the first time since early high school. I’ll let you know when I bust one out.

I know that you probably crave specs. Unfortunately for all three or four of you that even care, I do not care. I am just happy that I can have a computer on my lap for the first time in a week or so without getting angry at how slow everything has gotten.

Oh: I should probably fill you in on what happened with my last laptop…

Basically: it slowed to a crawl after my dog knocked a coffee onto it. I was far from surprised that it had that effect, but I was upset non-the-less. The massive perk with this computer is that it is actually lighter than the one I had. The downside is that, though disabled, Cortana is fucking EVERYWHERE. I don’t trust it. I was able to disable Siri no problem, so I am sure that I can figure out a block in no-time.

Now, excuse me while I remember how to use this fucking OS in a timely manner.

*gets frustrated and gets coffee*

 

PLEASE NOTE: I may come off as ungreatful, but I am quite the opposite. She got me a fucking LAPTOP! How awesome is that!?!?!?!?!?!

It was brought to my attention that I kept saying that Elaine would be released in July and I pushed it to June. That was my mistake, I guess I was just excited. Almighty Human written by the amazing Hannah Jordan will still be released September first. I am excited. I hope you are to.