Philosophy & More

Interrupting this update to point you towards the rules for reviews on “You’re Not Dead”

I have started fantasizing about being a philosopher. I have no clue what becoming one would entail, but it would be so fascinating. To create ideas about what life is and human condition would be such an interesting endeavour.

I think my recent fascination has been caused by a stint of watching biographies brought to you by the School of Life on YouTube. They summarize a philosopher’s body of work and they do a quick biography on their life. It is a great way to waste a few hours.

At the same time, philosophers never seem to have a fantastic life (on the whole. Occasionally. Parts). I think what I hope for is that I will be remembered for doing something interesting after I die. Not by children, family, or others that are horribly biased, but by the masses. I realize that comes off as entitled, but it would be neat.

Of course, I say this not knowing if that will ever happen. I just want a Wikipedia page based on me because I am that vain.

Update: THE DEAD CAT

My fiancée called me in a crying panic earlier this morning [Saturday, May 20th]. While waiting for a cab to take her to work, she saw a cat on the road.
Dead.

The reason she got so upset (aside from seeing a dead cat) is that the cat apparently looked identical to ours. Hank was, meanwhile, sleeping behind me. We sorted it out very quickly, of course, but had no idea where to go next. Does anyone know the next step in Canada? We resorted to her asking the cab driver and I have no idea what happened next.

ANYWAY, the moral of this story is “please be careful with your pets.” Tasha and I have three that we love more than anything and could not fathom the idea of letting them escape the apartment, but I am quite aware that not everyone is that way.

Update Two: THE VERY DEPRESSING MOMENT

[a few hours after The Dead Cat]

The owner of the cat in question came to my door about an hour ago.

Apparently, the cat pushed its way through a screen and escaped outside.

The owner of the cat kept his composure as he told me over the baying of my two dogs, but it was clear he was upset.

After he departed, I held Hank for over an hour.

I love my cat.

Hank. Sleeping. Happy.

Normal.

Welcome to the new site! I hope you like it. I will be doing a lot of updates over the next month. So if something needs to change, please let me know!

I have been putting a lot of thought into the word “Normal.” What a silly concept! Everyone is trying to be unique, but any attack on the normality of their actions results in chaos!

Let’s run it down: I am in a wheelchair, frequently have a mohawk, and have had 15 piercings over the years: I have gaping holes from where my plugs used to be. Often, it gets pointed out to me how I am not normal.

…but what if I am?

What is normal? There was a time when the majority of people, it seemed, had some sort of piercing. Would that not be the most normal thing to get a piercing, in that case?

What about being in a wheelchair makes me not normal? Not the standard, I will agree to that.

My point is that “normal” no longer pertains to the status quo. It is used as a slight towards a person or situation if the individual using the word does not agree with the situation and has numbers to back up their claim.

Anyway, that is where my mind is at with things and stuff.

I have been asked a few times why I changed the “brand” of my site after three years. I needed a bit of freedom to talk about things that were not wheelchair related strictly. In writing about VME (because even I cannot spell it most days), I was writing to a niche group, and I knew it. This name allows me to have the freedom to write what I want. Yes, most posts will, in fact, go back to disability laws and rants about wheelchair life. There will also be posts about movies, video games, art, and books. I’m excited, and I hope you are too!

Still Thinking

I have started on my second book, as I have mentioned before. The intro went really well, but I was floundering for a bit. I am proud to say that I have figured out where to go and it is SO good. I’m probably biased.

Something I am still struggling with is that I have not figured out how I was to re-brand this blog. I have nothing against it, but I am finding having one topic to hold my attention is debilitating. I don’t have many topics that I have barred myself from, but there has been a couple of times where I did not write about an event because it goes too far from “the topic”. I want delve into humour and generally use this ties as it is made to.

Rebranding

To those who check in every week: I am sorry I vanished Sunday. I spent my day thinking about rebranding this blog.

As much as I love what I have written, I find the health angle debilitating. I sometimes feel as if I cannot update with what I want. I know I have Mind the Music T.O. to talk about punk, I am not able to talk about things that I want to from time to time.

If you have an idea for a new name, please feel free to let me know.

Thank you for the patience. I am exited that I might have new information by Sunday!

I’m Making A Video

Hello, everyone!

As the title states, I am going to create a Vlog (does anyone say “vlog” anymore?) for next week instead of doing an update in my traditional fashion! Why? I have never really done it before with the exception of one review I did for Mind the Music TO.

Do you have any questions you have always wondered? Please leave them somewhere I can see them! The recommendation is to comment here, but either on my Facebook or on the You’re Not Dead page is acceptable. If this goes well, I will do another one and (hopefully) get better at it as time goes on!

Incase you care: Yes, my camera sucks. Yes, my microphone sucks. I am going to play with the audio to make it better, I hope, but it will still be subpar.

I state again, please ask me questions to be answered in the video. I have plans, but I am going to be scripting and editing all week!

Motivation

I need some ways to focus my attention onto my next book. I currently have 7,695 words and am only on chapter 4 and only 17 pages in. I love the characters; I love the world. What keeps distracting me is life and the internet. I have not even played video games much in the last month, even though two games I was frantically looking forward to have presented themselves (Mass Effect: Andromeda & Persona 5).

On a side note: I do plan on giving a kind of review once I actually get through those. I really love both series and seem to hate having a social life, so I do not quite know why I am being tardy on playing them through. I think I am just afraid of getting to see an end of the characters even though they are two new worlds I haven’t become invested in yet. Maybe I’m just done with the worlds?!
HA. NO.

Anyway, I just thought I’d let you know.

{EDIT A FEW DAYS LATER!}

I just scrapped over 5,000 words from my next story. I really liked the first few pages, but it got so complicated too fast. The difference I am noticing between fiction vs. non-fiction is because I am creating the story, it is hard to continue with little direction. My planning has turned into almost tricking myself that it really happened, then writing my fabricated memories.
I am just shy of 25 hundred words and 7 pages in.

(I can do this.)

{Edit}

Know what has amazing music? Persona 5. Seriously. I have played about 2 hours of campaign and I have fallen in love with the music in this game. It is like a happy trip-hop or a mildly dysfunctional lounge soundtrack. It is similar to Persona 4, but a bit busier and a bit smoother(?). Due to my strange addiction to this game, Mass Effect has kind of gone the way-side. I am also waiting for all the bugs to have been eradicated. I know the game-breaking vacant stare has been fixed, but I also know of a million other bugs that I have witnessed in the little bit of spoiler territory I have let myself see.

{Another Edit An Hour Before Publication}

I have posted the first page of the new work over on You’re Not Dead. Read it over, let me know how I am doing.

Marriage?

On my FaceBook page, I asked what I should write about. “Best Frozen Foods” was a strong contender, until I remembered that pizza is a thing. That entire question is a bit redundant in a world where we have pizza. Sorry.

Someone mentioned the topic of my marriage plans, and the response was overwhelming. Therefore, here you are masses: plans as they stand.

WE DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING PLANNED.

We were initially planning on getting married this August. When we looked up and realized that we had NOTHING planned, we have now pushed it back to 2017. We will plan everything soon, life has just been kicking us in the ass lately.

I will not lie: the fact that we are so disorganized scares the hell out of me. Was this a wrong idea? I know she is my one-and-only, but does she feel the same about me? What if I cannot be what I need to be?

These are all questions that float though my head. As soon as I let them come to be in some sort of medium, I laugh to myself. I know the answer to every one of them and THAT is why we’re doing this.

Am I ever going to be perfect? Fuck no. She swears that I am to her, and that is honestly enough for me.

If you have known me for a very long time, you may remember a time not all that long ago that I was against the idea of marriage. I still am, in a way, but she’s not. I want to be with her forever/for a long time. I want her to be happy. I want to be more than just a boyfriend/partner in title alone, I want to be hers forever. I want her to feel comfortable. I want her to know that I will be by her side for all time, not just while we are in the same room. Can you have that feeling without marriage? I think so, but it doesn’t change the fact that I want this. She wants this. (Want want want).

That is all I can really say about my pending marriage. It will happen eventually, I am just not sure when right now. I promise, when we have it all planned, to tell the world. I will not keep it all to myself.

Recommended listening (mirrors how I feel about her).