Wallflower

Hi! I see what you post, and don’t say anything!

Why? You could look at issues like low self-esteem or a superiority complex, but the truth is must more simple than that.

I realized a little while ago that I can look and no one has any clue that I was there. It sounds creepy, and it is! I could fight with posts I disagree with, or updates I find problematic, but the fact of the matter is that I am far too lazy to fight with someone or ellaborate on why they are wrong.

Maybe it is a product of my age. Maybe it is from being beeten down by people flaunting wrong opinions using bad/no research for the last 30 years. Maybe it is because I am non-confrontational.

A big part of it is that I see what someone posts, and I see how some react to it. I do not belong to parts of society that those posts are catering to, and I do not wish to try to change the minds of thousands.

I will speak up if I feel the information being shared is flawed and I have sources to back up why occasionally. Mostly in situations where I feel I actually have a valid and researched opinion. Or, if it is a social issue that impacts me directly. Otherwise, I am not going to fight someone just to fight someone. I am not going to start discourse if it will only change one mind on an issue that will never change.

Some things I will never fight anyone on are:
-female empowerment — Not my place, and if you have archaic views on the topic, society as a whole will eat you alive.
-economics — I have opinions that are bread from observation. Defending my points would be screaming at a wall, and I am far too passive to actually fight someone on the topics. That is regardless of how “right” I think I am.
-raceism/ablism — Either now my place, or society will eat you. I feel I don’t need to justify why I am just going to ignore your post.
-art — This topic has an asterisk on it. I will *discuss* the idea with you, but everyone is aloud to have opinions on art. That is what makes art amazing. We could both experience an expression and get wildly differing views.
-beauty — I feel commenting on someone’s appearence unsolicited to be creepy and unneccissary.

That list is incomplete, but I feel my points are valid.

Is there something you will never voice an opinion on? Even if you really want to?

no god

I found myself really considering the point of religion and faith. In particular, what the Judaeo/Christian structure could do for my life

Once upon a time, I actually considered becoming a man of the cloth. I loved the idea of devoting myself to a higher cause, and belonging to a structure such as, in my case, the Catholic Church appealed to me. Around the age of 13, I was faced with the option of Confirmation in the Church. I decided that, if I was actually going to pay homage to the faith, I should do my reading.

I was appalled at the crusades, the racism, and the blatant contradictions being presented to me. Out of respect for the faith I once regarded so highly, I decided against the sacriment.

I spent the next couple of years teetering on the question of why I was so aghast by things of the past. I learned of the toucher conducted in the residential schools, religions continued existence in politics, and did reading into concepts that buck that mindset which was being dictated by the biggest institutions on the planet.

Today, I found a new question to pose: why?

Why allow yourself to sit in a box created by anyone? Why do you strive to live forever? What is the appeal of coming back to this literal Hell? What’s so wrong with things just happening?

I’m not looking to change anyones mind, but these are actual questions that I cannot figure out the answers to. What is so wrong with living a life of hedonism? Is it so bad that things just H A P P E N? Is there not some extended comfort in the idea that there is NO consequence for actions we make? Am I actually alone is thinking that it would be nice if there was nothing after we die?